冥冥中的指引
隨和女居士
緣起：去年九月由於有佛友熱心的協助，令我興起置作慈師林鈺堂博士華文網頁的念頭以服務僅懂華文的佛友，由於我們現有的網站內容已夠充實，且因我不諳此技，因此慈師鼓勵我好好將心安住於修行及僅從事我可以勝任的法務工作即可。由於當時有佛友願意承擔網頁的設計與製作，所以我沒依慈師的教示，仍冒然做去。沒想到首頁才完成沒多久，就因突然的因緣變化而使所有的助緣完全斷絕，最後只好由我這個完全外行的人來繼續。由於沒有經驗，因此製作過程中，屢勞慈尊怙主為我不成熟且多變的網頁內容給予一次又一次的校正。也許是真誠的發心，有多回得到加持的夢兆，且製作過程也有一些感應，因此讓我在挫折中因這些鼓舞而得以堅持到底，現謹記三個較特殊的經歷以誌佛恩，以酬護法。
第一次：記得剛完成網頁的內容大綱時，我很仔細的將每個環節都測試了幾回，直到確認一切正常且上網也沒有問題，心想第二天可以萬無一失的呈給怙主確認內容。當天剛好上午要上電腦課，所以我在下課後，留在教室內做郵寄前的最後確認，沒想到測試到陳上師的網頁內容時，竟然出現找不到陳上師這個網頁內容的訊息，我很納悶，何以整個內容都變成空白的？就很仔細的將原始資料重新調出來重新製作這個版面的內容，接連重製了幾回，一上網就出現空白的網頁，最後甚至出現找不到此網頁的訊息，不得已只好求救於專業的電腦人士—洪老師，並請他檢示我的每個連結是否無誤，在他仔細的一一檢查與確認後，認為一切無誤，心想這回上網應該很妥當了吧﹗沒想到連上網後，出現的仍是一片空白的頁面，他很訝異這種情況，還說這是根本不可能會發生的事，我請他親自再檢查每個環結，仍找不出有任何錯誤，最後他也無能為力。我只好將此檔案刪除，再重新製作一份同樣的檔案。由於之前我已試了多回都是無法顯現網頁內容（我已不記得當時是用哪篇文章作為此網頁的內容，只記得不是慈師的作品），後來因經過幾次的重新製作，該內文最後是整個版面也全都不見了，我才意識到是不是要更換內容？因此只好重新構思要找什麼內容才好。我找了很多現有的文章，最後有個念頭閃過：陳上師的網頁內容應該用他心子的文章。沒想到這念頭一來，很快的就找到現在呈登的〈陳上師啟請短頌〉、〈啟請陳師早誕頌〉及〈陳上師行狀短頌〉三篇，當我將新內容放入網頁後，一測試，螢幕上原本無法呈現的網頁，像活起來似的全部立刻顯現出來。
第二次：為了項目欄中要放什麼專用標誌，實在傷透腦筋，換了不下幾十回，後來為了感謝佛友曾有的發心，所以選了「金剛智悲印」，但整個版面看起來，好像少了個什麼，因為精力有限，所以一直沒理它，直到有天晚上，我作了個夢，夢裡在網頁項目欄的第一個位置上出現怙主許多法印裡的一個「法界虛我印」，然後就醒來了。我向怙主請示夢兆，怙主指示依夢示將此印列入項目欄中，因當時已將金剛智悲印放在第一位，為了省事，所以向怙主報告時，就自行更改次序，把無我印列到最後欄。在新增專用標誌的時候，仍依己意將無我印放到最後面去，沒想到完成後，上網一看，一陣頭暈，一種顛倒且很不協調的感覺就呈現在螢幕上，因此我只好趕快卸下，重新依夢示的位置將無我印列於第一欄，同時將其他項目的次序也作了調整，然後將金剛智悲印置於最後。完成後，上網測試，記得當時，我被所呈現出來協調、融合且素雅的畫面感動得熱淚盈眶，而且一股無比喜悅的心情油然而生。此時我才領悟到—原來要先「無我」才能談金剛心及智悲行。這種冥冥中的指引，著實令人刻骨銘心。
第三次：華文網頁的一個特色是將怙主平時對弟子或佛友所請示的珍貴教示呈登出來。令我印象深刻的是，有一篇關於密法問題的開示，在本機作測試的時候都是正常顯現，但當我上傳至網站的時候，卻無法開啟該檔案，由於我不死心，一直硬要放上去，最後整個網頁都當了，連電腦也當機。事後向怙主報告該檔案無法上傳，並祈求怙主加持電腦運轉順利。怙主即指示可能護法不讓我們將此篇上傳，因此要我卸下此檔案另外存檔保留。沒想到我一依指示將該檔案卸除後，一切運作立刻恢復正常。我實在無法理解這些現象，即使是電腦專業人士，若不是親身經驗，也無法相信。依他們製作網頁的經驗那是根本不可能發生的事，也從來沒有發生過，但卻接二連三的發生在一個純正發心的網頁製作上。
網頁製作頗波折，考驗行人志堅誠；
純粹發心直作去，冥冥指引眷顧多！
跋
由於個人的能力所及，網頁製作仍有改善的空間。在生手的製作過程，能夠順利進展，要特別感謝慈尊怙主在百忙中仍殷殷提點，金剛師兄成穗的建議及諸佛菩薩的加持與護法的指引，使華文網頁得以順利運作。願有緣進入此網頁的人也都能得到諸佛菩薩的加持與護法的提攜，在正道上精勤用功，早日成證。
二○○五年七月廿五日
隨和居 於台北
Inspirational Guidance
Written in Chinese by Upasika Sui He
Translated into English by Dr. Yutang Lin
Causal Origination: Last September due to enthusiastic assistance from some Dharma friends there arose in me the thought of establishing a website to present Chinese works of my merciful Guru Dr. Lin so as to serve Buddhists who know only Chinese. Since the website we had had at that time contained much teaching and I did not know of how to design a website, hence my merciful Guru encouraged me to concentrate well on Dharma practices and to undertake only Dharma services that I was capable of. Since there was a Dharma friend who volunteered to undertake the design and construction of such a website, I did not follow my merciful Guru's advice, but instead rushed ahead with the project. Unexpectedly, not long after the title page was accomplished, all helps ceased due to sudden changes in causations. Eventually it continued only with the effort of myself, a novice to such undertaking. Due to my lack of experiences, during the course of web-construction I repeatedly burdened my Guardian Master with the work of reviewing the contents of my immature and constantly changing web-pages. Maybe it was due to my sincere aspiration I had had several blessing dreams, and during my web-construction there were some inspirational events. Therefore, even though faced with setbacks my spirit was uplifted and I could endure and sustain my efforts all the way. Now I carefully record below three events that were rather extraordinary to commemorate Buddha's grace, and to repay the kindness of Dharma protectors.
The First One: As I recall now when an outline of the contents of the website was accomplished, I carefully tested every juncture several times until I was sure that all were regular and there was no problem to visit it on-line. Then I thought that the next day I would surely be able to present it to my Guardian Master for verification of the contents. That day happened to be a day when I had computer lessons in the morning, so after the session I stayed in the classroom to do the final testing before I sent out the email. Unexpectedly when I was testing the contents of Guru Chen's website a message appeared saying that it could not be found. I was very dumbfounded, why did the whole content become blank? Then I carefully gathered all original materials again, and rebuilt the web-page again. Thus I worked several times. As soon as it was uploaded, it showed a blank page, and eventually even the message that it could not be found appeared. So I could not help but to seek help from a professional computer specialist, teacher Hong, and asked him to check every juncture of my work to see if they were without errors. After he had carefully checked and verified that each and every juncture was without errors, I thought that this time the result of uploading should be fine. Unexpectedly, after uploading there still appeared a blank page. He was very surprised at this situation, and said that it was impossible for such a situation to have arisen. I asked him to check each and every juncture again, and still he could not find any mistake. In the end there was nothing that he could do about this. So I had to delete this file and remake a new one that was exactly the same. Since I had already tested many times without appearance of the contents of the web-page (I cannot recall now which article was used as the content of this page, except that it was not a work by my Merciful Guru), and then due to several remakes of the web-page even the layout of that article was lost, only then did I realize that, could it mean that I need to replace the content of this web-page? So I began to contemplate again on what content to use would be appropriate. I gathered many articles that were on hand, and eventually a thought flashed across my mind: the content of Guru Chen's website should use works of his heart son. Unexpectedly, very soon after this thought arose I found the three works that are currently posted there: Supplication to Root-Guru Chen, Supplication to Guru Chen for His Speedy Return, and Praise to the Dharma Life of Guru Chen. After I had incorporated the new contents into the web-page, upon testing, on the monitor screen the web-page that could not appear immediately appeared fully as if coming alive.
The Second One: To figure out which logo to use in the classification toolbar was exhausting; over several dozens had been tried, and eventually as a token of repaying the initiation of a Dharma friend I chose the Vajra Wisdom and Compassion Seal. Nevertheless, the whole layout seemed to lack something. Since I was rather exhausted I did not pay any more attention to this point until one night in a dream I saw the Vacuous Self in Dharmadhatu Seal, one of the many Dharma seals of my Guardian Master, appeared in the first column of the classification toolbar, and then I woke up. I reported it to my Guardian Master for instructions, and he told me to incorporate this seal into the toolbar exactly as in the dream. Since the first column was already taken by another seal, to save myself the trouble of making more changes, while I reported the dream to my Guardian Master I simply changed the order and placed the new seal in the last column instead. Later while adding the new logo I still did it my way by placing the Vacuous Self seal into the final column. Unexpectedly, after it was thus accomplished when I viewed the web-page on-line I felt dazzled by a sense of upside-down and discord that arose from the monitor screen. Hence, I could not help but to remove that web-page. Then I rearranged the toolbar in accordance with the dream instruction to place the Vacuous Self seal in the first column, and also rearranged the order of the other items, and then placed the Vajra Wisdom and Compassion seal in the final column. After completion when I tested it on-line, as I remember then, I was moved to tearful eyes by the presence of a harmonious, unified and simple yet elegant image, and a feeling of incomparable joy naturally arose. Then I comprehended that, there need be first the realization of Vacuous Self, and then it will be possible to achieve Vajra mind and Wisdom and Compassion activities. This kind of inspirational guidance indeed made impressions deep into one's mind as if carved onto bones.
The Third One: One special characteristic of this Chinese website is to present my Guardian Master's precious teachings in his daily replies to questions raised by disciples or Dharma friends. What impressed me deeply was the event that, there was one article containing his teachings on some secret Tantric matter, and the web-page appeared normally when I was testing it in my computer, but when I uploaded it to the website the file could not be opened. Since I would not give it up I kept trying to upload it again and again, finally the whole website ceased to function, and my computer also went broke. Later I reported to my Guardian Master that the file could not be uploaded and asked him to bless the computer to function smoothly. My Guardian Master indicated that this could mean that the Dharma protectors would not allow us to upload this article, so he instructed me to remove this file and save it separately. Unexpectedly, as soon as I removed this file from the website, all functions restored to normal. I indeed cannot rationally understand such phenomena. Even for computer professionals, unless they had experienced such phenomena themselves, they could not believe in such occurrences. Based on their experiences in website construction such events were simply impossible to have occurred, and had never occurred, and yet such events happened repeatedly during the course of a website construction born of pure Bodhicitta.
Website construction was full of twists and turns,
Thus a practitioner's dedication was put to trial.
Born of pure intention and then endeavored straight,
Many inspirational guidance constantly received.
Epilog
Due to limitations in my abilities the construction of this website still allows space of improvement. During the course of this novice's construction the possibility of smooth progress was especially due to my Merciful Guardian Master's attentive instructions despite his busy schedules, for this I am grateful, and to suggestions made by my elder Vajra Dharma brother Stanley, and to blessings from Buddhas and Bodhisattvas and guidance from Dharma protectors so that the Chinese website may function smoothly. May all who had the opportunity to visit this website also receive blessings from Buddhas and Bodhisattvas and help from Dharma protectors so as to diligently apply efforts on the right path and attain enlightenment soon!
Written in Chinese on July 25, 2005
Residence in Accord with Harmony
Taipei, Taiwan
Translated into English on May 11, 2006
A Study for the Cultivation of Harmony
El Cerrito, California
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